Going to Miami!!!

I am so excited for Tuesday...I am heading the Miami with 3 of my good friends!

All three of them are teachers so this is their final summer hurray, for me...it's my 30th birthday! We're going to be in South Beach for 3 days then heading out to sea on a 3-night cruise to the Bahamas! This should be a really fun trip, we're all really good friends and compliment each other, or balance each other in other aspects.

I've already accepted the whole turning 30 thing, maybe I'll have another life epiphany directing me which way to go in life. I always seem to have life-altering revelations when I'm traveling.

So, here's to the trip with awesome friends, turning 30, and new places traveled...can't wait for whatever happens!!!

Turning the big 3-0!!!!

So in 20 days, I am turning 30!!!!

I had problems with this as soon as I turned 29. It took me until about 3 months ago to come to terms with it, but I have!

I'm actually getting excited about turning the dirty-thirty! For once in my life I feel confident, comfortable and at peace with where I am in life. Things haven't worked out the perfect way that I may have wanted them to in the past but I am feeling pretty damn good about what I've become!

I feel like I've matured into a decent person and am making choices based on what's best for me, not for the people around me! I've spent way too much time in the past concerned with what the person I'm with will think or what other people might think about me that I lost myself a couple times. Ok, more than a couple!

I've let go of any vices or issues that I've had in the past and focused on what will make me happy and what is the best for me...and only me!!!

So here I am, ready to go into the next phase of my life...the 30's! I have no doubt that my 30's are going to be better than my 20's, and I can't wait for it!!!

Kidney Stone = Worst Pain Ever!!!!

So yesterday morning I had a sudden....let's call it an attack....that had me almost doubled over in pain and resulting in me throwing up my granola.

I am not a puker and I can handle a lot of pain, so this threw my for a loop. Did I mention I was in the work truck on the the way to Hunstville too? Ya, that was awesome. I had to work all day in the heat and I wasn't feeling great. I ended up rallying throughout the day and felt better when I got home. Then....it hit again, and even worse!!! I ended up going to the hospital at 10 after only being in pain, intense pain, for half an hour.

Thank goodness that I had a great triage nurse, Shelly, though...she got me into emerge right away! Within 15 minutes I had a bladder scan, blood taken and was waiting for a doctor. Even though it only took about an hour for the doctor, I was in soooo much pain that I threw up again! Awesome, wicked, lots of fun! Once he saw me though, he did something wonderful...ordered me up an IV for morphine and some other pain killer that started with a 'T'! Pain was virtually gone, I was happy and on to the CT room! That was kinda neat too.

It took a couple more morphine uppages waiting for the results. I have a 2mm stone in my left kidney, no obstruction and it's moved downwards. Wicked, now I have to self-medicate until it passes! I was home, tucked in bed and a little loopy at 4:30 a.m. And I'm still kinda loopy cause of T3's!

So this means no rugby this weekend, kinda sucks!!! I just home I'm not prone to kidney stones because I can't handle that pain!!!

Working Vacation!

So here I am, in Huntsville doing a paint job with the company I work with. We're staying up here, by we I mean myself and 3 forty year old dudes that I work with, they're my brother-friends (meaning we are almost like family but we're friends, and they treat me like their little sister!).

I've been up here for only 2 days so far, and suppose to be here until the 27th where I'm leaving for 3 days to attend a wedding (oh joy, so excited...sarcasm is dripping from me as I type). Of course, that depends on the weather, which is crucial when painting exteriors of 24 townhouses. If rain is the case, I still think I might stay up here! I left Barrie with not such a great experience from a friend of mine being shitty and I like being away from her drama.

It's not so bad up here. We have a great "cottage" that we're staying in. It's barely livable with it's 4 bedrooms, 2 1/2 bathrooms, granite kitchen, fireplace, BBQ and porch, but we're somehow making the most of it. I've adjusted to getting up at 6 in the morning and going to bed at 9:30, which I'm sure is something I haven't done since I was a kid!

We've all got our morning and nightly rituals figured out so we're not stepping on each others toes, and having a couple buds to have after-work beers with doesn't hurt. What does hurt though is my back and these bruises that keep on appearing out of nowhere! Ah well, such is life being a painter, I think school started to make me too soft!

I'm taking this "vacation" from Barrie as a personal break from some things...things that I need to figure out, probably before I go back too. I'm sure at some point I'm going to think about these things, but for now...I'm enjoying just working and not thinking about anything other than what's for dinner!!!!

Tough Decisions In Life

There always comes a time in life when you'll have to choose between two things. Sometimes these things can be an easy choice and other times really, really tough!
I think I'm having one of these times. I have tried all the normal things that go hand-in-hand with decision making; weighing the pros and cons, picturing the outcome of both decisions, and trying to picture my reaction to either decisions. None of this seems to be working! I am stuck between a rock and a hard place and not sure which direction to go.
This has happened to me before, but I've never been so worried about making the right decision. I think I know the choice, but I'm not sure if I'm ready for it.
How do you know if you're ready or not? Oh goodness, decisions, decisions!

Thank Goodness For My Gurls!!!

If any of you are reading this, you may know that I'm not a girly-girl. I'm what some may consider a guys-girl. I seem to get along with dudes better than I do with chicks. I'd prefer to watch a game a pub having a beer than gossiping and painting my toenails. Not that I don't do girly things from time to time, I just usually save the shopping and toenail-painting for my personal time.

That being said...I am soooo lucky to have a few ladies that I consider the best friends a girl can have! These ladies are Marianne, Melissa, and Mandy (I just realized that they all start with M, and most people call me Mans...hmmm, the irony!). Anyhow, I had a great girly experience tonight with Mandy. Neither of us were feeling great after Saturday night antics and we almost canceled our plans, thank goodness we didn't! Mandy and I watched two "chick flicks" and made some dinner! I know it sounds really simple, but this is something I cherish doing with her! We sit there and chat for a bit, make fun of each other, have some wine, and then have a couple tears over some movies (the movies being Away We Go and Julie & Julia).

I am so fortunate to have times like these with my girlfriends! They keep me centered, feeling like I'm normal, and loved. No matter what I do or say, sometimes I don't even have to say anything, these girls know what I mean and know how to respond. If I didn't have these friendships, I may seriously fall apart!

It's comforting to know that these girls are there for me, as I am for them. Which would be to the end of the earth and back! I don't go out on a limb for many people, for for my girls, I would do it blindly!

I hope everyone has people this good and amazing in their lives also, if not...you're missing out! No matter what happens, I will always have my gurls!!!!!

Didn't see that one coming!

So here I've been, merrily navigating life, focusing on myself and enjoying the things that come along...then, bam! I'm caught with my head down! Someone I used to date and I have been hanging out, finally at the friendship stage (at least that's what I thought) when the bomb is dropped and the past has to be brought up again. I seriously thought I could get away with the past staying in the past. But noooo, things don't work out like that for me. So I've been thrown off course again and am sitting here, while I should be doing homework, feeling crappy because 7 months ago I made a choice and hurt someone. I know I made the right decision, but I feel so bad that this person is still hurt and feels so bad.
WTF, how do I go back to the whole concentrating on myself and not worrying about others anymore!? I really liked being in that mind-set, I need to get back there to find my sanity again!
Shit is too stressful right now with school finishing up, trying to figure out work for the summer and finding a place to live! Why right now, I'm sick of this being tested crap!